That is my new DA.
Go there now please ^^

It seems like I won't be able to forget it. It's not that I want to forget it, its just that, well, i don't know. everything I do reminds me of it. Like sitting her listening to A Rocket to the Moon at 3am in the morning eating cookies with juice. Its what I did during the summer, only I would also be talking to Bri over Yahoo IM, possibly discussing boarding schools.
I mean, i did love summer '08. Its the time when I made plans to save up money to leave bakersfield and go to a boarding school in Arizona. Me and Bri made plans to walk across the US, then go and walk across Europe.
Right after the summer me and Lunah started making plans about how she would come and visit me, and we would cause all kind of trouble here in Bako.
Me and Kyla would always be planning to go ice skating, or drive up to Hurrican Harbor, and we would plan it for weeks and weeks, but never accually do it. But then, when our cousin would call us we would go to Hurrican Harbor. spur of the moment. We would start to order a movie from the Tv, but not being able to decide out of 'Be Kind Rewind' or 'Enchanted' when we both secretly wanted to watch Enchanted. We wasted three hours discussing that, while making brownies. and that all happened at 3 in the morning.

Things have changed though....

I mean, yea, i still sit here at 3 in the morning eating cookies and drinking juice. but me and Bri no longer talked about wanted to go to boarding school and treating it like Hogwarts. Or opening up a bakery/zoo. Or traveling the world.
Me and Lunah no longer talk about all the trouble and fun we will cause when she comes and visits [she /is/ still coming though]
Me and Kyla can no longer do spur of the moment things. Now she is pregnant.
I'm no longer in public high school. I'm in no school, though I am soon to be home schooled.
My friends that are physically here, aren't really /here/ for me. They care about themselves only. I don't even like to call them my 'friends' They never care for any one but themselves. They haven't even called me and i havn't talked to them for like a month. and I have tried to call them.
Anyways. I'll just be rambling if i keep on going. Nobody wants to here that do they? probably not.

Thank you Bri and Lunah for being there last summer and talking to me over YIM in the early hours of the morning, keeping me sane. ^^ Summer '08 was better then Summer '07, just because I got to the bestest friends in the world.

Who knows what Summer '09 is hiding from me....


[Please excuse the punctionations and capitalization. My 'Shift' key isn't working so well and i'm tired and my back hurts and my leg hurts.]

Well I'm sad. I can't find anything past chapter 42 on +Anima. It really sucks. I'm just going to have to break down and buy them I guess. Or just sit in Borders and read them. ^^

Today LofR 3, the Return of the King was suppose to come! stupid Netflix. it should be her tomorrow though. and I won't be here tomorrow. I'll be hope because i have to go and meet with my new teacher. I'm finally going to be back in school. After like a month of waiting. xD

So for my next manga, it'll be one the Kristina told me to read.

xxxHolic
His and her Circumstances
The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya
Romeo x Juliet
Slayers.

-.- Thats now all of them, but I forgot the rest. ooh yea! And there is
My brother and Me, or whatever its called.

Have any others I should read? let me know!

Well i don't really know whats wrong or anything. I just feel out of place and all. I feel like I don't belong here in Bakersfield, let alone my own family. I'm completely different from them. I always try and hate just so don't get along with them. Its like I refuse to get along with them. I would let myself do it. Like tonight, when ice skating, i was actually having a good time hanging out with my sisters, but I had to force myself to be mad at them.

and then you know how people say that when you need to cry, then just cry? And then they laugh at you? People in the world are jerks. Like literally, there are no more decent people in this world, save for just a few of them.

But who is actually there when you feel like breaking down? You might have friend who are there when you need them, but I don't.

I don't have any true friend here in Bakersfield. There is really nobody that I can trust, or tell my biggest secrets to. I'm always stuck bottling everything up, then when I don't expect it, I break down and cry or something. I hate it. I can't help it though. My best friend here in Bakersfield is my cousins Kyla, but i can't tell her some of the stuff that I told you.

You know everything about me. Literally, I'm pretty sure I have told you everything. and when i told you everything I felt so relieved because it was like emptying a bottle that was almost filled up. It accually made me feel happy that I wasn't the only one who knew my biggest secrets. I actually had a friend who knew stuff about me.

The people that I hung out with while at school never really cared. They didn't care at all. I would tell them something big, and they would be all like, ''Ooh. Okay. So'' and they claimed to be my best friend. They claimed that they would always be there for me through thick and thin. They weren't.

And even though you are actually here in Bakersfield, you have been there for me more then the people that I see everyday!
I don't even know why I'm writing this. Maybe its because i heard 'Welcome to my Life' today and i have had it stuck in my head. That song always makes me feel like this. Lame. I know.

Anyways. I'm going now.

Pick ANY character of mine and I will tell you their:
01. Full name
02. Best friend
03. Sexuality
04. Favorite color
05. Relationship status
06. Ideal mate
07. Odd Skills/Skills in general
08. Last Amusing Escapade
09. Favorite food
10. Crushes
11. Favorite music
12. Biggest fear
13. Biggest fantasy
14. Quirks
15. Bad habits
16. Biggest regret
17. Best kept secrets
18. Last thought
19. Worst sexual/romantic experience
20. Biggest insecurity

Characters to choose from~

Aimee Curmen (Marauders Era, or Vampire)
Keene Curmen
Chasity Crimson
Teresa Gray
James Pater
Charlie Rolus (So stole that name from Bri)
Larry
and last but not least
Yume -hasn't given her a last name yet-